You know, at this very moment, I am really pissed. Why? Simply because I have so much in my mind right now and I can’t stop thinking about them.

First of all, I am a grown up now, parents. I’m not that stupid. Okay fine, maybe not super grown up but come on, you taught me a lot and I’ve learned much of it. I know what should and what shouldn’t be. Trust — that’s all I’m asking for. You taught me this and that but you won’t let me go. You won’t make me apply what you’ve taught me. You won’t let me be. Why is that so? Am I that irresponsible? Seriously, you’re adding insult to injury.

And, uhh… How do I put this into words? Mm. Well, Mr. M’s about to go back to school after a 5-month break. And well, I’m a bit anxious about it. It’s just that I’ve been with him for 5 solid months without any interruption/distraction. His time’s mine and mine only. But now… Gosh, I just hope I don’t breakdown. OKAY FINE, I HAVE MY INSECURITIES. I’m stuck with what if-s. But yeah, I know we’ll get through this.

Honestly, I feel so deprived of my freedom as a rational being. I’m not, somehow, able to free myself from all the insecurities this world has to offer. I feel so claustrophobic. It feels like I am bounded by insecurities and so many rules I just can’t comply with.

Kill me now. Please.